Naturally, and like many others who have experienced a time of singleness, I’ve wondered if there’s something wrong with me. These are the lies we start to believe when we aren’t attached to someone in a world full of happily-ever-after’s.Another lie I’ve struggled with lately is the lie that finding a spouse is all up to me.I have friends who have met their spouse or significant other as a result of online dating.It’s a great tool and I have no doubt that God uses it to connect couples on the regular.I must admit, I’m a little nervous about writing this because I feel so vulnerable in sharing my heart on this subject. I know and interact with a large network of people, and yet, there’s just no one in that network I’m dating or interested in dating.But, I think if I feel this way, then it’s likely that others do, too. I don’t really know if there is a reason why, other than the fact that The Lord is protecting my heart for someone else or a later time.I want a husband and a family the most in life and I don’t understand why it’s taking so long. Someday, maybe it will be the right time to use online dating. I believe wholeheartedly my future happiness will not be impacted because of this decision, and I’m resting in the fact that My Creator, with or without the Internet, has a plan for me that’s bigger and better than anything I can ask or imagine.
And that’s where my frustration with online dating comes in.Only, Cas has no idea how to tell Dean that all he really wants is Dean.Enter Balthazar, which soon raises the question: who is the actual wingman?I believe when it’s time to take initiative and we’re open to the Lord’s prompting in our lives, we know it’s time. And for me, right now, online dating would be stressful and frustrating.Am I missing out on opportunities to meet single guys? But is there also a possibility that I’m going to meet someone at work, at church, in line at the grocery store? I have to rest in the fact that my decision to not use online dating services right now will not impede the Lord from ensuring I meet the right person at the right time.